Friday, 08 April 2011
Open letter to Autism Sister Typical,
This journey that my daughter and the family is on, can be pretty difficult but its rewarding. I have learned a lot about myself, and the patience I never knew I had, and sometimes need mega dosages. I never knew how much I could cry, how many times it felt so good to just lay in the fetal position in the bath tub and let it all out. I never knew how strong I was; I never knew how just precious hitting the milestones with my oldest daughter could be. I never knew how beautiful hearing the sound of your voice was.
Typical, now I am thankful that you are in our lives. And yes, Im so glad that I get to experience a normal neurotypical life with you, deep in my heart; I wish you and Autism were on the same wavelength, hit the same milestones. But its ok, everyone blossoms in their own time. I love you both the same, even though Autism you can be a real pain in my ass. Stab in the heart wont you?
Like I said, I have learned a lot and am still learning. But Autism please, please for the life of me stop corrupting your sister Typical! I dont need this. I dont need Typical to be copying and trying to behave like you when she knows thats not how it works. I explained to Typical that you still get punished, you still get disciplined but in a different way. You guys are my life, and I deserve a break, some peace in my life. You deserve to grow up stable, and happy, and have a great normal childhood. I know its tough, because sometimes we cant go to certain places because Autism rears its ugly head. But we are trying to make the most of it.
Autism I really didn't need your influence corrupting Typical. This morning at school, dragging a kicking and crying Typical was hell; and brought back so many horrible memories that I don't wish to go through. That I don't wish on anyone. I'm so glad there were no other Nuerotypical parents to watch, and stare, and make comments. Im thankful that another mom was there to support me and help me. A smile and a "Can I help you?" is all I need.
So please Autism don't corrupt your sister Typical! I am doing the best that I can, and I would appreciate you to just lay off.