Friday, 06 July 2012
Criticism is never easy to hear even if its constructive criticism. You ever hear someone criticizing you and you werent suppose to hear it? Yeah, it stinks and it makes you feel flawed. It was the truth though.
A bible verse that always interested me was, "As a man thinks in his heart, so is he". I think its important that we have a certain confidence about ourselves. I think there is a fine line between confidence and arrogance. They say that for every comment spoken to someone, it takes 4 positive comments to reverse it. Its crazy how much power our words carry. I always do better when an att-a-boy is thrown my way.
I had a fantastice weekend in North Georgia with my family. I was able to hang out with my nephew Kyle for a whole day. We rode a 4 wheeler together, went exploring, and swung on a tire swing. I noticed that he wasnt the least bit concerned with the other children his age. He sometimes doesnt respond well to his name. He hardly ever says more than one word at a time. After Kyle went home, my mother and I were talking about all this and she told me that the doctors think he might have autism. My heart was so broken. Its been like a weight on my chest ever since I heard the news. I love him so much. So very much. I hate to think that he might not progress socially as some other kids. I felt bad, but then I watched videos on autism on youtube and it brought me to tears and put me on my face talking to God.
They call autism a disorder. They called ADHD a disorder and I was diagnosed with and put on medication that numbed me to the core. I feel like all this might work itself out for Kyle and where some PHD's might call it a disorder, we can call it a gift. I thank God that I was created in His image and not Doctor Joe Blow's.
It was also a time for self reflection for me when I might of been harsh on parents because their children were off the chain. You just never know someones story and where they come from. I could of grown up with kids with autism and never knew it. Its not exactly something people want to broadcast. How harsh have I been on someone who hasnt came from the genetic pool of the norm?
Growing as a person. Even at 24, I dont have it figured out.