Tuesday, 06 September 2011
There is a certain stereotype to being a big sister. A big sister is supposed to be responsible, a role model and achieving. I feel as though I let my younger siblings down by not living up to this stereotype. I was in special ed. They had to help me.
Even from a young age, it was obvious that my younger sister was intellectually gifted. She scored high on her IQ test and was accepted into special schools. Meanwhile, I struggled with even the most basic of problems. I remember one time we were folding paper, and I couldn't figure out how to do origami. I spent two hours trying to make a little box when she'd figured out the problem within five minutes and had to come over to instruct me.
It got worse as each sibling popped out with gifts, usually in math and science, and I was stuck in the memory of failure, of being a disappointment. My siblings were sharp and prepared, organized and neat, and I was, well, a disappointing mess.
They didn't seem to view me like that and made up for my defects, delusions. They don't shove me off into a corner like several other people did growing up. It makes my heart hurt that they accept almost any bizarre thing I do.
Anyone else the awkward older sibling? How do your families deal with having the oldest being the "younger" sibling?