Friday, 13 May 2011
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I am tired
I am tired.
I am tired of being told I am “wasting time” because I ask questions, seeking to understand what is expected of me here at work.
I am tired of being labeled “difficult” because I ask questions (because there is NO clear policy in place and certainly nothing written).
When you do that, when you label me difficult because I ask questions, you are telling me that I am difficult because I have Asperger’s.
When you tell me I am “wasting time” because I am trying to gain a better understanding of what you want from me, you are telling me that I am a waste of time because I have Asperger’s.
I can’t change who I am, what I am. I do my job, I work hard, I often take on projects that are outside of my job description. I am always quick to help others – even you.
Why can’t you accept me for who I am? Why can’t you accept my autism and let me be the good employee that I am?
Why is it so important to you that I be just like you, operate just like you?
I make accommodations every single day to live in your world.
Why can’t you make a few simple, reasonable accommodations for me?
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You have to put yourself in your boss's shoes and understand what he/she is going through. Imagine working in a management position where you have a lot of real stressful demands that you need to meet within a short period of time. It can become really aggravating when you have a staff member that comes up to you every five minutes or so to ask how to do something, especially if YOU think it's really simple. It's understandable if you're in a brand new position where you feel you need to ask a lot of questions to know how to do your job, but employers would rather you try to figure out the problem on your own before you go and ask. Some like to impose a "three before me" rule. This is important especially if you're wishing to seek a management position, where the tasks are more difficult and you won't be able to ask as many questions because you're expected to know pretty much everything.
You have to ignore the fact that you do have aspergers and stop dwelling on it because, unfortunately, no one is going to cater to your needs - at least not in the business world. I can understand where you're coming from - I used to be someone who would go and ask his boss every five minutes or so for help on something just because I didn't want to screw things up or because I thought it would be much faster than figuring it out on my own. Afterall, I was working with money. However, I wasn't seeing the big picture of things and I was only inconveniencing my co-workers who were very busy with their own tasks. Overtime, I realized that in order to be a good, successful employee, I needed to be a leader.
I'm pretty sure it's no different where you work, but your supervisors and co-workers are going to expect you to make mistakes every now and then. You just need to do the best that you can at something and don't worry about being perfect; your mistakes will guide you towards perfection.
I read your stuff online and you don't even think that Asperger's is real.
So you have just undermined your entire argument.
You don't believe in Asperger's so your "advice" is based on your belief that what I have I really don't have.
You have just completely discounted my condition and what I go through.
You also make a number of arrogant assumptions.
You are very wrong. I don't ask questions "every five minutes." In fact, I was told my my leadership that I don't ask enough questions. But the questions I do ask are aimed at establishing policy (of which there is very little actually written where I work). No one wants to give answers so they get upset.
As for "catering to needs," those are called "reasonable accommodations" and they are supported by laws that protect me.
You have no idea what you are talking about. Maybe it would be different if you actually believed in Asperger's. But that doesn't solve your making assumptions that are way, way off.
@steph - It doesn't matter if I think it's real or not because this is a common situational issue. Yes, I don't believe aspergers is real because it's a label for people who act a certain way...a certain way that can be curbed through experience and learning. The problem is you're using aspergers as a crutch and blaming all your life problems on it. You're on here, posting on public forums of how unfair it is that you're being mistreated at work and moping about how much of an outcast you are instead of getting off your butt and doing something about it. I'm not sure if you just want attention and want people to feel sorry for you or what.
"Five minutes" was arbitrary; I wasn't suggesting that is what you actually do.
I don't know of any anti-discrimination laws out there specifically for aspergers (otherwise Grant Thornton would go out of business). If there are any, please point them out. Most people with aspergers are normal functioning people who just have some social quirks to them that are fixable IF and ONLY IF they decide they want to fix them.
As I said, you don't know what you are talking about. It is the type of ignorance that you are displaying now that makes it so difficult for us.
I can't fix your ignorance, but I can tell you that education is the cure. Both the Americans with Disabilities Act and the Rehabilitation Act cover Asperger's ( they do not specify disabilities so you won't find it spelled out but they do cover it).
You should also learn about asperger's before you start preaching to people because your facts are very inaccurate. The characteristics displayed by asperger's can not be learned. For instance I can't "read" people and I never will. Our brains are wired differently.
Today I am GLAD to have Asperger's because if I was "normal" I am afraid I might be like you and I would not want to be like that. I like being intelligent and accepting of others and kind and helpful.
You don't know me or my "problems." You have no idea what you are talking about. I feel really sorry for you. I will pray for you.
I think everyone can relate to this in someway to be honest.
I feel what your saying dude..I deal with this kinda shit at work everyday.
@Chibi_Son_Gokou@xanga - why are you such an ass hat?. mommy didn't hug you enough..
I don't have Auspergers, but I was also labeled as "difficult" at my job because I asked too many questions. Heaven forbid somebody take the time to actually work with me to understand the procedures of the company.I don't work there any more.
It might be a good idea to look into other companies who would be more willing to work WITH you and allow you to ask as many questions as you need. Good luck!
@steph - Talked a little about this in an earlier blog myself, it's better to annoy people by asking the Qs you need to get something right than F*** up big time just because you didn't want to annoy them.
Oh and ignore Chibi, he's obviously a troll.
Thank you, @Springingtiger - It is much better to ask the questions (especially when they have no real policy in place) because when I don't they get upset. I have started providing an analysis with my questions (in writing) as well as a viable solution.
My coworker said that surprises them and they just don't know what to do with me (she also said I am smarter than they are. LOL).
My husband said that this guy was a troll and that he needed to go back to the doctor because he is obviously undiagnosed. (I was confused at first, but he explained that was sarcasm - 44 years and I still don't get sarcasm, so much for the "experience and learning" theory - he was saying that the guy is obviously an aspie too. LOL).
Wouldn't that be terrible, having someone like Chibi representing us somewhere?!
When I first told my husband about my AS he thought I was making it up. However, after almost three years (of which he has spent educating himself on Asperger's and autism) he has a very good grasp of the quirks and characteristics. He also knows how to handle me. He really should be helping other spouses of aspies, I think.
Anyway, my whole point there was that we should be focusing on the behavior and not the person. In other words, be frustrated with the behavior, but don't be frustrated with the person exhibiting the behavior. Actually, everyone could use that lesson, parents, spouses, friends, everyone.
Guess that goes back to hate the sin, love the sinner.
@steph - Yeah, I don't think that Chibi is being a troll at all... he clearly stated his opinion in an understanding and coherent way. I think you are being a little too sensitive regarding his comment. I don't know a lot about Asperger's, but I agree with Chibi - instead of saying how tired you are of dealing with your co-workers' and manager's frustration, talk with them about it. Tell them what you're telling us. If they insist that you learn on your own, then try your best to learn on your own. If things STILL aren't working out after that, then it is probably best that you find a different job. I don't know your situation; none of us do. The fact is, plenty of people have to deal with this kind of thing on a daily basis, whether they have Asperger's or not. Of course, having Asperger's makes it more difficult for you than the average person, but in the end, it is what will make you stronger. It's just another obstacle to overcome, and when you do, you'll feel that much more in control of your condition.
Asking lots of questions ahead of time to make sure you don't cause a bigger problem later makes sense!
Also, for all I know your boss isn't trying to reject your autism when he or she rejects your asking questions. See, people without autism (whether they have Asperger's or are NT or have William's Syndrome) can ask lots of questions too. So hearing you ask lots of questions wouldn't make your boss know that you're asking because of autism, instead of not having autism and asking because of some other reason.
@Chibi_Son_Gokou@xanga - What makes you a troll is your manner. Suddenly you appear from nowhere and start jumping on asperger posts with the obvious intention of stirring up argument. You don't believe Asperger's is real, ok we got that that's your opinion, how many times do you need to repeat yourself? If you contributed strategies
This is supposed to be a place for people with Asperger's to talk about our struggles, but it has become a playground for ignorant trolls.
This is what is wrong with our society now. There is no tolerance. Instead of becoming educated, people revel in their ignorance and spread it around, speaking on things they know nothing about.
There are certain things that people with autism can't do. There are certain things that can not be learned.
And while you are at it, tell the deaf man that he just needs to hear you, the blind man he just needs to see and the crippled man that he just needs to get up and walk. After all, disabilities don't really exist, it is all in our minds, right?
Obviously you have nothing better to do than harass people with disabilities. That is truly sad and pathetic. Get a life. This used to be a good site, a safe site for autistics to discuss our challenges. I guess it isn't that way any longer. So sad.
And the longer people remain ignorant, but continue to tell others how to live even through they are thoroughly ignorant about the situation, the condition, things will never be different.
We don't need a cure for Asperger's/autism. We need a cure for your ignorance and intolerance.
@Coopers - I have NTs who tell me the same thing. I don't think that only aspies go through this, but NTs have the advantage that they can read people and understand things in interactions such as facial expressions and tone of voice (I don't even understand sarcasm - I always think it is just as it is said - can you imagine how much trouble that gets me into?).
There are certain things, fundamental to communication, that we just can't learn or be taught.
@zippy - I don't know what his problem is, aside from the fact that he (and his groupies)
a. Don't know anything about autism and Asperger's
b. Obviously have no life because they have to troll a site for people with autism and Asperger's and harass people with disabilities
c. Are very immature and childish
d. Have no idea that there is a whole, great, big world out there beyond their own tiny little existence
e. Are ignorant and have no desire to become educated
f. Are perpetuating the problem of intolerance in the world
I hope that once they grow out of this they will become productive citizens, but I don't have much hope unless they start trying to get better now.
Then again, kids will be kids, right?
@Springingtiger - I've been subscribed to Autisable for a while. Isn't the point of posting articles on a public forum to generate discussion? Do all the commenters have to agree with what the original poster says? Where in my original post did I mention that I didn't think aspergers wasn't real? I only brought that up because steph said she saw it in another post.
@steph - I don't recall having any "groupies".
If anyone here is acting childish, it's you. You're reminding me of that guy Phillip from the most current season of Survivor. All I did was provide you a suggestion, to put yourself in other peoples' shoes to try and understand why they think the way they do because you seemed so confused about that, and I even stated I used to be someone who asked a lot of questions for possibly the same reason you do but then learned that it's not the best idea in the world. I also used advice that representatives I met from multiple accounting firms have told me (accounting because that's my field, but it seems like something universal across all fields) and thought you may be able to take it into consideration. Nevertheless, you saw it as nothing more than an attack against your ego. I can see now why you're having such problems with co-workers and the like - when you act like this, there's no question about it.
@Chibi_Son_Gokou@xanga - I have
Asperger's. We are unable to put ourselves "in someone else's shoes." We are unable to imagine what it is like to be someone else or to imagine how someone else is feeling or what they are thinking.
This is why it is so frustrating. You, like so many uneducated NTs, come across as so arrogant and like you know everything yet you have absolutely no idea what a person with Asperger's deals with on a daily basis.
I am neurologically unable to do the things that you make sound so easy. You would have better luck telling the paraplegic to get up out of his wheelchair and walk across the room.
Educate yourself before you start handing out your silly "advice" because you have entered into territory that you are terribly ignorant of at all levels.
@steph - Chibi claims to have been diagnosed as having Aspergers even though the only symptom he displays is a tyendency to speak without respect for the feelings of others. This is not just a place for Aspies but for all with an interest in Autism - in all its forms - to discuss and share, that includes people on the spectrum as well as family, carers and professionals.
@Chibi_Son_Gokou@xanga - You have posted in other discussions that you do not believe Aspergers is real. You may have been subscribed to Autisable for a while but you seem to only have mede your presence known in the last couple of days. I have never said that "commenters have to agree with what the original poster says", but disagreement should be constructive, courteous and not contentious for the sake of being contentious.
@steph - I firmly believe your negative, defeatist attitude and outlook on life and the world prevents you from doing things you claim you can't do moreso than your "aspergers" does.
@Springingtiger - Some people agreed with what I said. Are they as ignorant and closed-minded as you claim I am?
@Springingtiger - Yes, anyone who it interested in autism should be reading what is here, but when "interest" becomes an attack, then something should be done. I mean, stalkers and serial killers begin with an "interest" in their victims, right?
I just look at what I know I have never been able to do, and I know it isn't my fault.
Such is the battle of living with an invisible disability, every idiot behind a computer suddenly becomes an expert and decides that all I have to do is try and learn. LOL
But, they are children. I guess you can't expect too much from little kids who, it seems, were not raised to respect others (or maybe they just have the disability that doesn't exist).
I know what I know. I have been dealing with this for four decades. I am sorry, no kid whose last diaper hasn't dried yet isn't going to get behind a keyboard and suddenly cure my challenges that come from being autistic. That is actually humorous. The things I struggle with as an aspie are things that can not be changed or "cured."
Plus, for all they know I could be nonverbal (that means I could not speak) and have to write down everything to communicate with others. There are autistics who are nonverbal but write very fluently.
You never know who is on the other side of the keyboard and you never know what their situation is. You should always tread with care and if you don't have anything constructive or nice (and know what you are talking about - or at least ask questions) to say, please leave me alone.
@Chibi_Son_Gokou@xanga - You are attributing to me that which I did not say in order to continue an argument a tactic which is pointless.
@steph - It may be a little too much to compare Chibi to a stalker or serial killer, he is just amusing himself. If he stumbled on a christian site he would probably declare himself an atheist or a moslem whichever he felt would get the biggest rise out of people. In all fairness better his posts than advertisements for handbags and some of the spam we get here!