Once again, I’ve been let down by ‘the system’ (I feel like describing what a system is but I will refrain). Hospital and Outreach is supposedly a place to help re-integrate students back into mainstream education. And seeing as I won’t be returning to school…they have decided they can’t offer me a place. This is after around 5 months of trying to sort something out with them – they have completely and utterly wasted my time (this blog is probably a waste of my time as I doubt anyone will read this). I mean, they could have cut to the chase sooner. I don’t care whatever other people say, I feel let down by everyone to do with education and I don’t think I will be coming to trust anyone like that again anytime soon. Who was I to think that I’d stand a chance ? My life was destined to result in nothing good ever since I was born or since this disability became apparent.
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Hey... that's not true. Just because the "system" lets you down, it doesn't mean that there is no hope anywhere. Your blog wasn't a waste of time. At least this person read it. I'll be praying for you. :)
Kinda sounds like you need to read a quote relating to hope, I love optimistic quotes. Don't let it get you down. I read it, and I bet lots of other people did too.
"...I don't care whatever other people say, I feel let down by everyone to do with education..."
Maybe some of the people who let you down also feel "I don't care whatever other people say" and that's why they let you down instead of caring what you said to them? From the point of view of anyone else, you are one of "other people" instead of being him or her.
Most people who need something non-standard, who don't have the money that enables them to buy whatever educational options they like, have been let down by 'the system' at some time. Its just a matter of plugging away and keeping an open mind. Not everyone who lets you down means to. They could have been doing their best and suggesting all sorts of things but then they may have been let down by their superiors or other departments.
The only person who can let you down is you. Support might have helped me but when I was a kid there was no Asperger's. I made a life for myself, perhaps it could have been different but I have no complaints. Fight for what you want, whether you get support from the system or not, we all have to fight for ourselves.
I can relate to that. It's amazing how often we find ourselves fighting when the intentions were all good to start with. Why must it go that way? Hope can be difficult to find when you are in a mood to throttle someone because they have just attacked unexpectedly. I wish I could disguise it like some people can, but I'm much too transparent. It's a dilemma!