I've always tried to be on the mature side, yet sometimes I let my anger get the best out of me. I was outside with my brother (who is diagnosed with autism) and we were were siting on the back of the car, with the garage door open. My brother would make sounds going "eeeeeee" You know, the sounds that autistic kids make.
Okay, forgive me if I am too illiterate or naive to explain my brother's condition, but I am sure that it is not that hard to elaborate on. Anyways we were outside, my mom was inside cooking, and my brother, getting excited over bicycles (anything with wheels), would put his arms up and go "eeeeee". These black kids, that just moved on, middle schoolers, I believe, were staring at my brother. As I am use to these stares that people give to my brother, I chose to ignore it. as I was just leaning against the car thinking about how slow today is. My brother was staring at them because they had bicycles and skateboards that excites him.
Than this punk preteen (as Addie describe a preteen: someone who thinks they are a teenager,) was on his bike staring at my brother and mimicking him. he would lean on his bike and smile sadistically going "eeee" while his younger brother would encourage him to do so. I got really annoyed. I wanted to shout out "you mocking him?" but I kept my mouth shut. I had to. With all that was in me, i had to keep my mouth shut. My mom was less than 10 feet away from me (unaware of this whole thing cause she's cooking) and I did not want to disappoint her or make her mad.
So my brother, unaware of this guy cruel teasing, would go "eee" back, and showed friendly gestures and laugh,. The preteen, thinking this is amusing, chose to do it again. I mugged him (gave him a really dirty look) very coldly. He than did his "eeee" and proceeded to laugh at my brother's friendly reaction as if this is a joke.
I don't know about you, but I've grown very defensive towards my brother. And I don't know what can possibly be classified as lower than making fun of someone who is diagnosed with special needs in front of them, that is sickening. I was really angry. The guy is probably an 8th grader, maybe a 7th grader. Either way, it showed immaturity cruelty.
My immediate thought was to stare him down and going 'you mocking my brother? ' in a threatening tone and gesture,
however, whatever prevented me from doing that, I will never know.
Now, there is only one thing in my mind when I proceeded to go inside the room, cause I did not want to cause trouble was,
Wake up. 6am. collect eggs. egg house . go back in house. pretend it was nothing.
I want to do that. I do not care if they were mocking me, but if mocking someone with special needs is not wrong, than I honestly do not know what is.
So tell me, will it be wrong of me to egg their house?
Well, obviously it is wrong, and will always be wrong.
but it'll make me feel better to just know that they came home going "WTF" .
next time, however, they pull someting like that, I honestly do not know how to react.
maybe i will stare them down, maybe i will give them the bird, or maybe I will choose to walk away.
I can't elaborate or exaggerate how angry I am right now, needless to say, all that is rushing through my mind is 'vengeance'
however, I know that is not the answer to the problems. and I know better than to do something so immature because I can't face
the fact that this world is over populated with people with a black heart.
Maybe i'll calm down later
right now, I just want to think up sadistic ways to get my revenge.
thats how i defend autism :)
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Comments (32)
Just give him a nutshot. Then you can watch him go "eeeeeee".
You showed real restraint and maturity. I'm a grown adult and I admit: when someone is mocking my son, I want to do something vengeful that will make me feel better (I may have even 'said" a thing or two in the past). The point is, you did what is right, though there wouldn't be anything wrong with explaining what's going on, too. But I understand: preteen 'punks' don't want to hear you explanation --- they just want to pick on him. Just realize that they probably do it because they don't feel great about themselves for some reason. You wouldn't NEED to bring someone else down, if you are comfortable with yourself. Feel free to email me (by clicking on my name above) if you feel the need to talk about this more.
Jon Gilbert, Author of Same Child, Different Day
I'm glad you were able to hold back your anger instead of lashing out at the kids. You'd probably end up escalating the whole thing to something uglier.
Huh. Has this been featured on Autisable, before? I was sure that I've read this exact account before somewhere. :/ I even think I commented on it! o.o
Weird. :p
@SavonDuJour@xanga - Thank you for replying! I just knew I'd read this before!
I don't remember anything about the comment section lighting itself on fire over this issue, but that probably just means that like with so many other posts, I probably just read the post itself, skipped the other comments, made my own and just never came back to it. :p
However, I can see how something like that would probably cause an issue. :/
Thank you for providing me with the link to the post from November. :)
Well spotted!
@tracezilla@lovelyish - I also thought I had read it before so I Googled it. It was posted on Fri. November 6th 2009 http://www.autisable.com/715992267/better-ways-to-defend-autism/ . It was posted by Duhiana@xanga (Diana Duong) who is a high school girl and now its being posted by P1AutismMom who has two sons, the first born in 1994.
It is clear from reading her blog that P1AutismMom's family is two sons and a husband, no daughter. At no point does she say she also has a brother with autism, which she surely would in a blog about autism and anyway would have changed the whole tenor of it.
P1AutismMom also commented on that first blog by Duhiana and gave it minis, the works. So why she is now posting it under her own name I really don't know.
Something about this really lacks credibility and needs an explanation. Else am I to suspect that every other post by P1AutismMom might also be a fake?
@SavonDuJour@xanga - That's kind of what I was thinking when I realized at first that I was so certain I'd seen this post before. Because, from what I'd remembered the OP in the first place was a young girl. I just figured maybe the person putting it up there now had a reason for it. Maybe, they were hoping to get some good feedback this time, and not have it overshadowed by the argument over the descriptive word "black" that caused so much trouble the first time? I clicked the link you provided and am reading those particular comments now. They did seem to take over pretty quickly, didn't they?
@tracezilla@lovelyish - I read Duhiana@xanga's blog. She does have an autistic brother, she doesn't seem to have any other siblings. So again, why does P1AutisticMom pretend that she is the author of this piece? They both can't be.
I have to say, I also had problems with the word "black" . It was used only twice: once to describe the villain of the piece and once for her feelings caused by that villain, "this world is over populated with people with a black heart". Its hard not to make the connection, at least for me, but if that is how someone feels, then that is how they feel, I'm not the thought-police. And if I've read it wrong, well there you go, that is one of the things about anything written, we interpret everything we read according to our own frame of reference. Unless you are doing analysis in an English class, that is the only way you are ever going to read anything.
@SavonDuJour@xanga - Hm. Well, I guess you'll just have to ask P1AutismMom directly and see what she says?
Maybe P1AutismMom is only trying to see if this time around better, more on-topic, comments will be given? The whole point of the post was that the original OP's brother was being mocked. :/ And, maybe she's just trying to see if this time people will focus on that instead?
I don't know. I'm not a mind reader, either. :p But, I like to give people the benefit of the doubt if I think there's a possibility.
@tracezilla@lovelyish - Maybe she recommended the post and it showed up as hers?
@keystspf@xanga - That's a good idea, that's very possible. :)
@tracezilla@lovelyish - @SavonDuJour@xanga - Good catch! Had someone not mentioned this I would've been totally in the dark.
@keystspf@xanga - How could that happen? I've recommended loads of posts and none of them have ever then posted as if I'd written it?
@tracezilla@lovelyish - @keystspf@xanga - @SavonDuJour@xanga - @QuantumStorm@xanga -
It was recommended by me and posted at that time. It was recommended for my Xanga friend with her blessing and it was posted with a lot of comments. I do not know how this got posted again with my name attached to it. Carelessness I guess!!! I will e-mail Joel and ask him to take this down.
Again, I have no idea how this happened. Not my doing I assure you.
By the way, here is the original posting from when I recommended it back in November 2009
http://www.autisable.com/715992267/better-ways-to-defend-autism/
Dear Joel,
Please take down the recent re-post of http://www.autisable.com/719470587/better-ways-to-defend-autism/?page=1&jump=1506442818&leftcmt=1#addcomments
It has recently been re-posted under my name and it makes me look like I am plagiarizing someone else’s work. It may be an error as I was the original recommender of this blog post from xanga
The original work was from Duhiana@xanga http://www.autisable.com/715992267/better-ways-to-defend-autism/
Thank you for your prompt attention to this matter.
Sincerely,
Nancy Gozdowiak aka P1AutismMom
@SavonDuJour@xanga - I am not a fake!! Diana is a friend of mine on xanga and I recommended this blog back in November 09 with her blessing. How Joel from Autisable ended up posting this again under my name is a mystery to me.
I have addressed this in an e-mail to him and have asked that he take it down ASAP as it does appear to damage my reputation.
It would have been kinder and more responsible of you to address me directly or bring this to the attention of autisable.com so they could correct the problem without having to speculate and therefor jumping to the conslusion that I am phony.
I have never seen this happen before and hopefully this will not happen again in the future to me or any other responsible poster regarding the concerns of autism.
Sincerely,
Nancy Gozdowiak
@P1AutismMom - @SavonDuJour@xanga - I've heard of similar situations happening with the other ish sites; in fact I remember a specific incident involving another Xangan and the ish site HardestLevel where a post was credited to the wrong person.
@QuantumStorm@xanga - I have been so busy with my boys home for Vacation that I have not visited for a while and then tonight I find this and it really upset me.
I e-mailed my friend on Xanga to let her know too. I originally asked her permission to recommend it back in November because I thought the readers should hear from a sibling of an autistic child. Parents vent a lot but the sibs are dealing with a lot too and they need to be heard.
Thank you for your reply. Appreciate it :)
@P1AutismMom - No worries; I would be upset too if I found someone attributing a blog to my name.
I still stand by my first comment though, nutshots are good
@QuantumStorm@xanga - LOL, I will pass that on to Diana. She will love it : )
I recall this, I sub to Diana's blog as well as Nancy's. A mistake has been made and it was not one that Nancy made. She rec'd the blog a few months ago and someone has mixed it up. Nancy has never been one to take credit for someone else's work. I hope they get this cleared up soon for both Nancy and Diana's sake.
@QuantumStorm@xanga - LOL. I will take that into consideration.
@Jon Gilbert - Thank you very much, however, I have a lot of growing up to do. Lately it seems I always divert my gaze at the next person who gives more than a second glance to my brother, and I feel that I'm just hot headed or offended way too easily. But your comment made me relieve to know that I am not the only one who feels some sort of anger when an autistic kid is being mocked on.
@P1AutismMom - I would have never noticed this if you did not message me. Haha, this is not really a huge dilemma. (; but I'm glad the confusions have been cleared up, hopefully.
@Duhiana@xanga - Thank you so much for saying that. Judging by the craziness last time this was posted you are probably glad it has my name on it this time. LOL
@P1AutismMom - LOL last time, the girl was on a rampage. and noo, I would never have you be a direct target at such a lame illiterate post as this :)