Friday, 06 November 2009
I've always tried to be on the mature side, yet sometimes I let my anger get the best out of me. I was outside with my brother (who is diagnosed with autism) and we were were siting on the back of the car, with the garage door open. My brother would make sounds going "eeeeeee" You know, the sounds that autistic kids make.
Okay, forgive me if I am too illiterate or naive to explain my brother's condition, but I am sure that it is not that hard to elaborate on. Anyways we were outside, my mom was inside cooking, and my brother, getting excited over bicycles (anything with wheels), would put his arms up and go "eeeeee". These black kids, that just moved on, middle schoolers, I believe, were staring at my brother. As I am use to these stares that people give to my brother, I chose to ignore it. as I was just leaning against the car thinking about how slow today is. My brother was staring at them because they had bicycles and skateboards that excites him.
Than this punk preteen (as Addie describe a preteen: someone who thinks they are a teenager,) was on his bike staring at my brother and mimicking him. he would lean on his bike and smile sadistically going "eeee" while his younger brother would encourage him to do so. I got really annoyed. I wanted to shout out "you mocking him?" but I kept my mouth shut. I had to. With all that was in me, i had to keep my mouth shut. My mom was less than 10 feet away from me (unaware of this whole thing cause she's cooking) and I did not want to disappoint her or make her mad.
So my brother, unaware of this guy cruel teasing, would go "eee" back, and showed friendly gestures and laugh,. The preteen, thinking this is amusing, chose to do it again. I mugged him (gave him a really dirty look) very coldly. He than did his "eeee" and proceeded to laugh at my brother's friendly reaction as if this is a joke.
I don't know about you, but I've grown very defensive towards my brother. And I don't know what can possibly be classified as lower than making fun of someone who is diagnosed with special needs in front of them, that is sickening. I was really angry. The guy is probably an 8th grader, maybe a 7th grader. Either way, it showed immaturity cruelty.
My immediate thought was to stare him down and going 'you mocking my brother? ' in a threatening tone and gesture,
however, whatever prevented me from doing that, I will never know.
Now, there is only one thing in my mind when I proceeded to go inside the room, cause I did not want to cause trouble was,
Wake up. 6am. collect eggs. egg house . go back in house. pretend it was nothing.
I want to do that. I do not care if they were mocking me, but if mocking someone with special needs is not wrong, than I honestly do not know what is.
So tell me, will it be wrong of me to egg their house?
Well, obviously it is wrong, and will always be wrong.
but it'll make me feel better to just know that they came home going "WTF" .
next time, however, they pull someting like that, I honestly do not know how to react.
maybe i will stare them down, maybe i will give them the bird, or maybe I will choose to walk away.
I can't elaborate or exaggerate how angry I am right now, needless to say, all that is rushing through my mind is 'vengeance'
however, I know that is not the answer to the problems. and I know better than to do something so immature because I can't face
the fact that this world is over populated with people with a black heart.
Maybe i'll calm down later
right now, I just want to think up sadistic ways to get my revenge.
thats how i defend autism :)
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